21 March 2011

from a year to eternity

By 10:30 this morning, I had it with this place. For the entire week. I am so tired of feeling powerless, un-respected, tired of being beat up because everyone shoots the messenger even if she is in a nice dress...

I know I need to stop caring. But that do-gooder in me can't be turned off that easily. I am frustrated and tired and a year seems like an awful long way away.

Lulu has gotten worse and I think our set-up down here is a large contributing factor. She has stopped prancing but last night I saw the sparkle is gone from her eyes and that has made me absolutely sick. I don't know what else to do. I will call her vet and see about switching up pills, maybe try acupuncture, walking her (may help both of us), but at the end of the day, I know what she needs - her home, her yard, and me not being gone all day.

I keep reminding myself that I just need to hold on a bit longer... the year is already a 1/4 over... I can make it.... but today, right now, it feels like an eternity.


Fiona said...

I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling this way, hon. It's tough when the furryface you love doesn't seem to be happy.

I see the sadness in Loo's eyes when Monday rolls around and his humans go off to work, leaving him without company for most of the day - though his day is punctuated by two long and fun walks with his walker. Not the same, though, as having those he loves, around him.

Big hug for you and for Lulu - and hope you power through the rest of the year.


patsy said...

Thanks so much, Fi... xoxo