I have been contemplating my 2007. While there was a lot of goodness, there is still room for improvement, my dear 2008.
2007 helped to usher in the return of the new and improved Patsy. I want to keep that whole "new and improved" ball rolling in 2008. My self awareness has continued to grow as well as seeing the signs much quicker.
I instituted the must have list for a partner because I learned without being brutally honest with myself, I go off on random, unnecessary man tangents.
While I felt the twinge for a companion, I made so many wonderful friends this year that made my man-twinge go away. For the first time in my life, I made fabulous women friends. My time - thus far in SxSW land - has opened so many doors for me. Doors that I always hoped for but never knew existed. I have a great circle of friends out there. I have a life out there. So many dreams came true in SxSW land of all places. I would have never guessed it in a million years.
With all those things going for me, 2008 is beginning with a huge level of uncertainty. The playing field that initially brought me out there is changing ~ dramatically, drastically. I do not know how much time I will feasibly have out there. There is a big part of me that is saying move out there any way, but the other part of me says no for practical reasons. Hopefully sorting through this uncertainty will be over with quickly. I am ready to embrace the adventure of SxSWland as my home. If only we lived in a black-and-white world where a decision like this would be cake.
Somehow, I feel if I can sort out living/working situation, then the man will follow. After all, at the end of the day, it is all about me.